Originally posted on January 30, 2009 - Friday
Current mood: validated
Category: Romance and Relationships
Despite the fact that I stayed up WAY too
late last night surfing the net for my favorite songs of the 80s & 90s, it
was an absolutely exhilarating morning. After 2 days of carefully driving on
asphalt ice rinks and through horror movie-like fog, I was able to speed to work
this morning like normal. However today, I got a rare opportunity to drive in an
automobile wolf pack, in which we each gleefully took turns leading on
our early morning commute. It was so much fun! An excellent way to start the
morning I must say. Hell, after that, I didn’t even mind that
the morning security guard conveniently neglected to tell me that two of my
shirt buttons were undone, clearly exposing my cleavage and bra after we greeted
each other with a pleasant “Good Morning!” I didn’t discover my
unintentional exposure until I’d reached my desk about 45 seconds later.
I did notice that he was smiling a bit bigger than usual
today. 😁 It’s all good though, I wanted him to have
a good morning too and if my breasts could help in that endeavor, so be
it. I think that
expelling those things/people that are no longer beneficial, has left me more
time to think and meditate. What I’m
wondering about now, is whether I should even attempt to verbally communicate
with my next romantic potential. I think I do a better job communicating
my feelings literarily and pictorially, than I do verbally. Plus, talking
is soooo 2008, it’s time to elevate ourselves to a higher form of communication,
say…telepathy? Maybe not quite
yet. Unfortunately, my
stoic and sarcastic personality gets misunderstood or misinterpreted sometimes
when I speak to people. 🤐 It’s also that ‘mean thing’ that’s
followed me around since I was a child. It’s really weird how my sister and I
can say the exact same ‘derogatory’ thing to someone but I’ll always be labeled
as the mean one. My sister and I are equally dangerous but people
don’t see it that way. She’s always the sophisticated ‘sweet’ one and I’m the
snake-tongued evil one. 👿 That theory has
been tested more than once by my sister and I. Just last year we were talking
about that exact subject on an after-the-club stop at Wal-Mart (like 2:30AM).
Anyway, we approach the cashier (a 20 Something female) and my sister asks her,
“Which one of us do you
think is the nicest?” I
flash her my big gummy smile and bat my eyes in an effort to curry
favor. She instantly answers without 2 seconds
hesitation and says, “You are, without a doubt. She’s
definitely the mean one!”
My sister bursts into laughter and tells her, “That’s what everybody says. But she
isn’t, I’m definitely the mean one!”
Another
ongoing example, if we’re at a club and she’s left to watch the seats
while I’m dancing, she’s approached repeatedly because of how people perceive
her (inviting). When I’m left to that task, I rarely have to tell people
that the seats are taken, most people don’t even approach me. I don’t think I
look mean or anything, I just try to send out brainwaves indicating where the
off limit places are, and it almost always works or so I thought. It
wasn’t until recently that I discovered that astrologically, I was always
destined to be the unapproachable one. 😞 Now before I go into this, I want to say
that I have no faith in fortune-telling and soothsayers. (So, don’t send me
any messages urging me to find Jesus-I found him long ago.) But I have found
that the personality descriptions related to *key* planets in your chart
(Sun, Moon, Venus, Ascendant/Rising), are almost always dead-on. With me, my
Rising Sign (Scorpio) projects the way the world sees me. Check out what I found
online;
If your Rising Sign is Scorpio, don't be hurt if people keep their distance. It's not out of disgust, but out of reverent intimidation. You seem so intense -- it could be your penetrating gaze or the way you seductively lean against the wall -- whether you mean to or not! You're dynamically alluring, and people are inexplicably drawn to you. All this perceived sexiness is fun, but there's a downside to looking like a Scorpio -- you may seem moody and even a little dangerous. You’re quick-witted, quick in speech and action, self-reliant, courageous, self-controlled, stoic and hard to understand. You're the silent type, appearing calm on the surface but extremely emotional inside. You have great determination and the strength to overcome any adversity. Scorpio Ascendant people have a lot of presence. There is something about them that tells the world that they are not to be pushed around. Their manner commands respect, and in some cases, fear. Scorpio rising people always seem powerful and determined. You either love or hate Scorpio rising people— they are rarely people who go through life unnoticed. In fact, some of them are confused when faced with the fact that they get such strong reactions from others. They seem to look right through people, seeing through superficiality. Enjoy the mystery factor -- it can be fun to be an enigma!
Bull’s-eye! Now, I’m not claiming that
everyone feels that way about me. However, I am reasonably certain
that the sentiment can be applied to the vast majority, before they actually get
to know to me of course. I will also admit that there are lines a person can
cross that will most definitely lead to me unleashing The Kraken on their azz,
but those instances are pretty infrequent (now). I’m pretty mellow unless a beat
down is urgently required. (just kidding…kind of) It also occurred to me while I was looking
for images of my most influential childhood/teenage obsessions (neatly
referenced in The
Origin of the Beast
photo album), that there are so many aspects of my personality that I could
never ever truly relay to anyone verbally. I don’t think I’m overly complicated or
anything, I’m just very “varied” and draw energy & inspiration from many
different sources. I know, I seem scattered and all over the place but I’m
really not. Honestly. The person that can appreciate that as a
quirky positive personality trait, will likely be the one that has the
most potential of understanding me best.
In many ways, the key to my heart, my
inner most desires, my goals, hopes and dreams are accessible to anyone with
internet access. Any interested party can gain all the knowledge they need,
right here in my beloved blog. I wished I could simply look up everything I
wanted to know about somebody I’m interested in by accessing one social
networking website. I guess it isn’t as easy as all that but it certainly should
be. Maybe romantic failure is imminent because
of a simple case of online information overload. Perhaps, I’m too
exposed. Maybe it’s a simple case of innocent misinterpretations. Perhaps, I’m
not being as clear as I think I am. After all, internet research can sometimes
lead you in the wrong direction. Through researching my own possible
physical ailments online through the years, I’ve had HIV/AIDS, Cancer, Brain
Tumors & Aneurysms, Leprosy, Small Pox, Yellow Fever, Typhoid Fever, The
Black Plague, Whooping Cough, Lyme Disease, Mad Cow Disease, The Bird Flu,
Tourette Syndrome, The Bubble Boy Disease & Erectile Dysfunction (just to name a few).
None
of which turned out to be
true obviously, but they were intimidating prospects nonetheless. But I think I may be on to something here.
I won’t even bother talking to my next ‘potential’, I’ll just make sure he has
internet access, likes to read long-winded blogs and likes looking at an obscene
amount of pictures of me. We’ll see what happens after all that. My thrilling
drive to work this morning has me in a positive mood about all this but I have a
sneaking suspicion that once he actually gets through all the ChaunyBaby data,
he’ll be gone with the wind. Much like me and my beloved wolf pack this morning.
Fine with me, good riddance to bad rubbish!
†°(I’m
no plagiarist dammit! Rising Sign/Ascendant information derived from the
following websites;
astrologyguidance.com,
cafeastrology.com
and astrology-numerology.com)°
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