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Originally Posted : November 6, 2006
Category : Life
Blog 26

Cheerful Chauny (about time)!

Gleefully, this entry won't be fraught with my usual romantic pessimism. Today, actually last night, I was knocked in the head with a good dose of 'positive energy'. I don't know where it came from but I'm happy it made a long overdue appearance. I don't want to sound corny (well, I don't care if I sound corny) but all of a sudden, I'm filled with a sort of self assured encouragement (about the future) that's eluded me for quite some time. I feel really happy for no discernible reason. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I mean, it would be very easy to concentrate my energies on all the negative stuff but suddenly, I don't feel that way at all. It's like someone hit me in the head with a Happy Stick! 😆 I still don't have nearly the amount of the answers I was seeking but for some reason, that's okay with me. Sadly, it's been a while since I've felt this good. Last night, I'm lying in my bed (alone unfortunately) watching TV and this overwhelming desire to smile just hits me! 😁 All day (all last month in fact), I'd been down in the dumps, trying to figure out what I'm doing wrong (in my life). I know I've made plenty of "missteps" and I'm positive I'll make many more before it's all said and done. Now, however, I don't find that fact frightening at all. I'd better ride this "high" for as long as I can. I can't be sure but I think it's the real thing and not the proverbial calm before the storm. 🌩 Truthfully though, I'm an erratically eccentric, mysteriously moody and routinely restless chick that is perfectly capable of putting myself on my own internal emotional roller-coaster (not to mention those around me). Add to that, the possibility of PMS and you have a real recipe for disaster!🩸😡 You see this entry is much smaller than the rest, right? Perhaps, I'm subconsciously waiting for the other shoe to drop. 👡Perhaps, I'm trying to hurry up, get it all out and record it for prosperity before the feeling goes away. Well, until that happens, I'll be walking around with a big, goofy smile on face, encouraged by the good things to come for me. Smooches!!!

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