Category : MySpace
Blog 34
I’m A Horrible Cheater
I've been thinking...I'm a dirty, lying cheater and I just can't hide it anymore. Let me start by saying that I consider myself to be a very faithful woman by nature. There has only been one guy in my whole life, that I was pretty sure I would've cheated on (if we married). We were very close to getting married actually. The problem was his ridiculously low libido. 🤏🏾 Being a young woman, married to a young man that I would have had to practically beg for physical stimulation from, was an absolute impossibility for me. I mean, living like Peg Bundy (from the show Married With Children) wasn't at all my impression of a successful married life. So, I ended it and I never had that nagging feeling of possibly becoming an adulterer again. But lately, I've been doing exactly that (in a manner of speaking). I've been sneaking around, like a thief in the night, keeping this "other" part of myself hidden. It used to be, as soon as I got home from work, the first thing I'd do is sign on to MySpace and check & send messages to the fine people I'd met around the world. I found the MySpace environment very fulfilling. Then, maybe from my own doing (overexposure perhaps), the whole MySpace thing became a little redundant and unfulfilling. I couldn't explain why but the effects were hard to ignore. I just didn't care as much as I once did. MySpace wasn't the first thing I did when I got home anymore. I should also say that it was then that I decided to "test the waters" of another site called Facebook in mid December ('06). I admit to you today, my fine MySpace buddies, that I'm now obsessed with that site! I've been aggressive with finding friends and "meeting" people on there and it's paid off big time. I'm thoroughly entertained for hours, which is a feeling that's eluded me for some time. Is this Sick or Sad ? I care not!!! Facebook doesn't really allow you to hide behind cute "online handles" or "nicknames", you pretty much have to say who you really are. At first, I didn't like that part of it but then I drew a weird kind of comfort from it. There was something appealing about someone using my real name. Even yesterday, after attending a private performance of a show called Cirque Du Soleil "Delirium", the first thing I did was to run home and post the pictures I'd taken before and after the show, explaining in great detail, of my euphoric experience (which I'll write about soon). If you're not familiar with Cirque Du Soleil, you can see pics and clips at this divine site:
I should also admit here that one of the major things I wanted to do before I die, was to see a live Cirque Du Soleil show. Seriously, after seeing the show yesterday, I was petrified riding home that I would be struck dead (in the yucky weather) as a final ironic twist of fate. So now, I admit to you all that I've shamelessly neglected my fine MySpace friends in favor of my new Facebook friends. I feel like a pathetic cheater, a neglectful lover, a louse. You have my solemn oath that I will try my best to give MySpace as much attention as Facebook. It'll take some hard work on my part, but I'm a very strong woman and I'm up for the challenge. I now offer my apologies and my gratitude to you all. Thanks for your time. You weren't expecting something else were you? 😉
Posted : 2007-01-21 01:36:00 PM Created : 2007-01-21 01:35:00 PM Visible to : Public
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