Incomplete Thought Part III *MySpace Archive

Originally Posted : February 22, 2007
Category : Romance and Relationships
Blog 37

Incomplete Thought Part III

Well, my beloved extended family, it's been a while since my last writing. 💻 This is my first entry for February! No real (good) reason for that, I'm just not feeling as ‘literarily’ creative as usual. I'm planning to attend a friend's CD release party on Friday (the 23rd) in Dallas, so maybe there will be some cool things to write about afterwards. Fortunately, there have been subtle improvements in my personal life but not note-worthy enough to write about. Early Wednesday morning, I decided to do a cell phone "clean-out" to purge myself of those contacts that haven't led to much/any excitement in my personal life. Those I'd hoped to have continued contact with, were contacted before the clean-out. Those I had no desire to speak to/see again were just deleted. It's a small thing but in a very significant way, it signifies the true end of something (or someone ). See, for the most part, relationship-wise, I've been a woman that prefers burning bridges to ashes, rather than keeping my foot slightly "in the door". I mean, why do that? To me, that's a recipe for disaster/confusion later on. Unless, of course, you feel you can truly just be a friend to a past romantic interest. There has really been only one past serious relationship I felt that way about. My very first (real) boyfriend. Though I still love him to this day and I still speak to him from time to time, I could truly be satisfied with being just friends with him. The love I feel for him is more of a constant  love, rather than romantic love. 💘 When I say "constant", I mean that type of love that you know that whatever bad/ugly things you say or do to each other, you never want to NOT hear from this person ever again (even though we go years without speaking to each other). Kind of like family, no matter what you do or how you screw up, there is always going to be that constant/family love. Anyway, I'm making subtle progress to get those things I think I really want, I feel that they are right within my reach. But those things I think I really want can really change rather drastically from day to day. But in this "process", I'm learning more patience, control and maturity. It sounds profound to say all that but the truth of the matter is, this "process" is BORING AS HELL! 💤 I suppose that's a good indication that I haven't yet reached the pinnacle of true patience, control or maturity. Oh well, I tried. 🤷🏾‍♀️

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