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Blog 18
My Monthly Monster
Hello good MySpace folk! I'm going through a weird "thing" today. Sadly it isn't an unusual occurrence...it's a monthly one. 🥵 You know what I mean! I don't want to be gross or anything but I'm in the mood to share.🩸I suppose it's commonly thought that most women go through their monthly PMS (bad) moods. 😡 I feel like I'm the only one because I don't know any women, personally, that act bitchy around that time, just me! Though you may have a different perspective. In addition to just feeling crappy, I find myself being totally and completely candid when it isn't warranted or solicited. Take last night, I got to enjoy a short, pleasant visit with one of my new friends. Since knowing each other, we've been pretty sweet to one another..hug "hello" or "goodbye" but last night I guess I didn't really want to be touched at all. I hadn't even realized that I was behaving like that until a few minutes of small talk with him in the kitchen and he quietly remarked, "Don't I even get a hug hello or anything?" I apologized and complied of course. 😒 I didn't purposely want to not hug him but as I try to remember all of the details of last night, I guess I was sort of passively-aggressively moving about the kitchen to avoid physical contact. I'm remembering now how I made a few remarks about getting sick of the sight of someone after a week. He admitted he had that problem too but I think he probably wanted some small assurances from me that I wasn't referring to him (I really wasn't). I enjoy his company and I think he's extremely attractive, it's just that about the same time every month...NO ONE is attractive to me! I just now remembered that while I was walking him out, he remarked that he liked my cooking and it was nice for a girl to be able to cook better than him. He also said that once he dated a girl that stopped seeing him because he cooked better than she did. While I'm not discounting that may have been the actual reason, I gave him an unsolicited alternative reason. I told him, "It probably wasn't your good cooking, I think she just didn't like you!" He then 'woundedly' agreed that that may have been the actual reason too. Now usually, I'm not like that. I'm very polite and considerate of people's feelings. When I go through these monthly "Mr(s). Hyde'' phases, I can't even completely remember everything I say to people. I'm just remembering some of my less than lady-like behavior now. Ya know, that happened to me in college once (that I can remember). You may already know this but when you first go off to college and you share your room with someone that isn't family, it takes some adjusting. Fortunately, when I first left for college at 17, I roomed with someone from my hometown. But one day in particular, I was having an extra bad 'period' day. 😠 And I faintly remember this, I told her that sometimes when I look at her, I just want to pick up something and smash her head in! I was completely and totally serious. I remember her being a little shocked at my admission and I don't really remember her doing/saying anything to provoke it...I just came out of me! Purely unadulterated, unsolicited, unapologetic and supreme meanness! I could tell that I'd hurt her feelings when she innocently asked me the next day if I were feeling better. I told her I was and she reminded me of unkind words the previous day. Of course, I profusely apologized for my insensitivity but I knew then, that this Monthly Monster🩸would never fully be under my control. Oh well, a person can't be all sweetness and light all the time. And while it might seem stereotypical or sexist, I'll say this (purely as a warning), if I look you dead in your eyes and make an uncharacteristically off-color, horribly mean remark/comment to or about you, assume that I'm dealing with my Monthly Monster🩸and please forgive me. Unless, of course, you just get the sense (intuition) that I just plain can't stand you, in which case, go with that and leave me the hell alone!!!
Posted : 2006-09-15 11:54:00 AM Created : 2006-09-15 01:08:00 PM Visible to : Public
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