Category : Romance and Relationships
Blog 42
Cup-O-Noodle Confessions
As I sit here, dutifully picking the peas out of my shrimp-flavored Cup-O-Noodles, I'm reminded that I haven't "spoken" with you in quite some time. At least, it seems that way. My sincere apologies for my literary lapse. This blog inaction is probably a good sign with regard to my mental and spiritual well-being, though I realize it's not very interesting to you. It's much more fun to read all the dirt, so to speak. There have been a few notables in the ChaunyBaby Book Of Love❤. One of them has to do with that relationship gnat that just won't go away. The inappropriately persistent annoyance in which I've dedicated so many past blog entries to. You guessed it! He called a few days ago, asking me if he could take me out sometime. TAKE ME OUT?! That HAS to be a trick, after that dramatically ridiculous ending we had. I can only assume that he is hoping one day I'll say yes, only to drive me to some remote area, gleefully take his "torture kit" out of the trunk and happily give me a good "what for" as punishment for this big mouth of mine. Yep, ya girl ain't fallin' for that one! If murder is to be my ultimate fate, let it be some muscle-riddled stranger that over-powers me and drags me into his car, with me kicking and screaming with all my might! I'm not keen on calmly walking straight into the dark, murderous abyss, on my own accord. No thank you! I think right now the need to write/purge my unhealthy feelings is not as imperative because I've found a happy medium in my potential romantic relationships and in life, in general. On one hand, there are truly encouraging signs for the future but on the other, there is still a paralyzing fear (of irreversible commitment to the wrong one) that keeps me up most nights. Maybe in all my 30-something years, I haven't learned a damned thing! But then maybe, if I can let go of some of this fear and callous emotional armor, I can find real happiness. Maybe not the happiness I'd always envisioned but something else new and unexpected. Maybe if I can manage to soften my tough exterior, I can truly reveal my rather soft and delicate underbelly (to the right person-of course). Who knows! It's a divine tragedy that I can't help but enjoy (if I'm truthful). Really, the emotional roller-coaster ride just makes life more interesting. A boring, stagnant life would really be a pitiful existence. Of course, I say that now because nothing truly tragic has happened yet. However, my next entry might be dedicated to the violent ex-con polygamist that left me knocked-up, shoe-less and penniless in a foreign country (with no passport). Well, that wouldn't be a very good situation for me but I'd be sure to make it a juicy blog entry for you. Smooches!!!
Posted : 2007-05-22 07:27:00 AM Created : 2007-05-22 11:36:00 AM Visible to : Public
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