I’m Chi-Chi Cantu, The Virgin. (Incomplete Thought Part IV) *MySpace Archive

Originally Posted : 2007-03-22 09:12:00 AM
Category : Life
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I’m Chi-Chi Cantu, The Virgin. (Incomplete Thought Part IV)

Time out! I want a life "do-over". I want to completely start over. I want a chance to go back to all things disappointing  in my life and do them a different way this time. I want all those ridiculously unhealthy relationships, decisions and misdeeds in my life erased FOREVER! I want to change my name to Chi-Chi Cantu and still be a virgin. I want a chance to go back to grade/high school and this time, I'd pay attention. I want to go back to college and take it more seriously than I did then. Why can't I do that? Why can't we all do that, just once, if we wanted to? Maybe I'm doing it already, maybe we really all live in "The Matrix" and none of this is real anyway. Maybe, my life is like the movie "Groundhog Day" and I'm really doing this day, month or year over and over again and never remembering it. How can I get this unsettling feeling that I've wasted my time and energy on lame prospects (both professionally and personally), to go away?  As you may know by now, this newest "reflection" of mine, is probably just a passing philosophical phase, in the many I'll likely experience today but I wanted to share it with you anyway. Truthfully, I look back on my life and seriously question whether I'd actually be able to make different decisions, if I didn't have the benefit of knowing what I know now. The answer is probably that I'd do everything in exactly the same, lame way (knowing my personality).  But if I could go back, having the benefit of knowing what I'd know now...man watch out! I'd be richer than Oprah! (I'd say Bill Gates but I don't think I'd be interested in doing what he does-even in another life) I guess everybody's wished they could go back in time, from time to time. Frankly though, since I do believe in the existence of extraterrestrials, I'll continue to hold out hope that time-travel  isn't completely out of the question for me. Until then, I guess I'll try to live (happily) with my choices and decisions, however screwed up they may be. I'll also seriously consider changing my name to Chi-Chi Cantu and telling people I'm a virgin. Although, I don't think the name "Chi-Chi Cantu" exactly screams virgin. Maybe, I'll just tell people I'm a virgin instead. After all this inactivity, I think I'd just about qualify (again).

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