Category : Life
Blog 46
30-Something Years. Ode To My Beautiful Sis
I'm having great difficulty writing this because I'm getting teary-eyed as I'm typing. This will be a little on the mushy side but I'm going to write it anyway. I'll try to make it short but not too short, you know me! As you know, there are rare moments in life when everything seems so clear. The grass is greener, the world is beautiful and you appreciate everything great in your life. Short moments really, when the mysteries of the universe are no longer mysteries (though the clarity can be fleeting or forgotten). I had one of those "clarifying" moments yesterday while exchanging emails with my sister from work (she at her job-me at mine). Unlike you good people, sis never reads my blogs. Though I'm sure she could sense a slight melancholy flavor to my mood lately, she really hasn't been around me enough to really witness it (she works and goes to school full time). Then yesterday, while catching up on some work, out of the blue, I get an email from her in which the subject line simply said "You Are..." In the body of the e-mail there were 18 words I'll never forget, it said. ..a beautiful, talented, creative, loving and nearly-flawless woman. I am blessed to have you in my life." Isn't that about one of the sweetest things ever written by a human being? I wasn't completely ready to let go of my solemn mood, so I gingerly replied that I appreciated her words but it doesn't seem that anybody truly appreciates any of the loving, sincere, eccentric (some say "quirky") qualities about me/us (she and I). I tell her that I'm okay and I'm sure it's just a "mood" that will soon pass for me. She replies with this gem; "I TOTALLY know what you mean and the only solace I can offer is, even though we may have slept through a storm last night, it did rain and even though we weren't physically watching the time change minute after minute, it did change. Absolutes are absolute because even though we haven't physically witnessed a fact-it is still a fact or even if we were the ONLY people to have witnessed that fact, it is still a fact. This time of uncertainty and doubt, as you so eloquently put it, will pass and at the end of the day, as with everyday before this day and after, you will be a dynamic addition to the universe." Good grief! How could you "follow" something that beautiful? Why would you even try? Sitting at my desk reading this, trying desperately to hold on to my pitiful sadness, I burst into tears! 😭 This time, happy tears. I had to turn away from the opening of my cubicle because I couldn't seem to compose myself. Actually, I'm doing a piss-poor job composing myself right now, as I write this. I've known her for 30-something years and I had no idea she was such a poet! Or at least, I forget sometimes. Man, I read that email over and over again. I had to, my eyes kept welling up with tears, so I had to keep starting over! Then, I started to think about all the other stuff she does for me. Not small stuff either. Aside from being my bodyguard and on-site therapist, she cooks for me anytime I want her to. We'll just be sitting around the house and I might mention that I'm a little hungry. She'll burst out (all the time), "You want me to make you something? I don't mind cooking." And I'm not talking about Top Ramen or toast, I mean full-fledged, international, five-star, multi-course meals! She never lifts an exacerbated eyebrow, even when she's gotten home late because of work or school. She bakes for me all the time and makes me cocktails to help me sleep at night. She gets up early every morning to make me the best coffee in the entire world (truly people-this coffee kicks azz-and only she can make it). Each morning she even asks me if I want her to make me something for breakfast! She made me eggs this morning but if I want, she'll also make Malto-Meal (which I hate making). Man, I'm in heaven! Though I always thank her, I really feel like a total jackazz, a pathetic, unappreciative jerk for ever being melancholy about anything. I have it really good and I don't always see it clearly. I mean, I'm not married or "attached" but my life partner, my soul mate already lives with me. All I really have to do is clean the house, decorate a little (which I love) and occasionally proof-read her writings and I get that kind of treatment? What in the world makes me so worthy? I'm not telling you this as some "big sister", gushy, mushy, misplaced "props'' to an undeserving family member. This chick is the absolute bomb and I'm really the blessed one. She's amazingly charming, super smart, culinarily gifted, ridiculously gorgeous, incredibly funny and marvelously maternal. There are WAY too many wonderful things about her to cram into a single blog entry, so I won't even try (too hard ). However, I will tell you that this is my moment of perfect clarity and appreciation for all things great in my life. She tells me all the time that she knows, without a shadow of doubt, that because of the woman I am, I deserve the very best in life. The thing neither of us realized was that I already had it and have had it for 30-something years. How perfect is that?! 💕
Posted : 2007-06-07 12:27:00 PM Created : 2007-06-07 12:53:00 PM Visible to : Public
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