Category : Life
Blog 27
An Epiphany and a Thanksgiving Wish
I'd hoped to have more to share with you today but by taking on my new optimistic view of life, I've decided that no news, is good news. 👍🏾 I do want to share with you a recent life-changing moment. I'm proud to say that I had an epiphany at a small gathering at my house Saturday night. There was food, drink and good times but there were also moments in which fearful, embarrassing misdeeds were exposed. 😱 Some by friends but my epiphany was a result from exposing my own deep, dark secrets. The first part of my epiphany was the realization that at the age of 35, I could still stay up all night like I did in college (I got up about 8AM Saturday morning and didn't sleep again until 3:30PM Sunday afternoon). So, that alone was good for my ego, I felt sort of invincible. I felt like those 'power naps' that seemed to become so necessary in my mid-30s, were maybe not necessary at all! Discovering that was like freeing myself from physical and emotional bondage-seriously! Also, that night, I'd admitted things from my past that I was ashamed to have ever even participated in (then). Nothing really (all that) illegal, just things I'd maybe do differently if I had a chance. Things I don't care to repeat, if I've grown any as the years have gone by (which I have). Like all significant things on my mind at the moment, the things I revealed that night centered around relationship issues and mistakes. In an earlier blog entry, dedicated to a young woman I know (That's Life. A Dedication), I'd eluded to some of these relationship 'things' from my checkered past. 🏁 That aside (or maybe because of those things), I can truly say that I'm blessed. I'm blessed because I have dear friends that I can reveal these things to and I have no fear of reprisal for doing so. 😚 You know how it is, you start off telling little things at first, like dipping your big toe in the pool before deciding to dive in. When you see that admitting that little thing (first) doesn't illicit disapproving expressions from your 'audience', you slowly reveal more and more of yourself. Frankly, I think we all needed to get things out that night. Reliving these hurtful, past experiences helped me see how those things truly shaped the woman I am today (whether that's good or bad) and I'm grateful for that. You know, I have so many things to be grateful for. When I'm feeling like this; safe, serene and full of hope, I'm ashamed of myself when I let those small, insignificant details/people 'color' my life. 🎨😒 I'm ashamed that I let people that are not really significant set the tone for my (bad) mood. I could go on and on about that but the moral is simply this, no matter how bad you think things are going for you at any given time, be thankful for all the wonderful things in your life that you simply take for granted. Be thankful for good friends, family, health, love, food, independence, maturity, pleasant breath, big feet...whatever you take for granted everyday (and you alone know what those things are). Sure, it's easier to pick out the bad stuff but it's healthier to search for and appreciate the good stuff. That's my Thanksgiving wish for you and myself. Never forget and don't just remember/ appreciate on Thanksgiving Day. 🍗 I know, it all sounds cliché but as 'corny' as it may sound to you, it's absolutely true and you know it.
Posted : 2006-11-22 11:50:00 AM Created : 2006-11-22 12:09:00 PM Visible to : Public
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