Blog 21
Chauny's Pity Party
The universe is confusing and upsetting me right now. The week started off really good. I had a nice visit with my new friend on Sunday night. Followed by Monday night, in which I saw a couple of really awesome performances by my friend Tahiti (the "T" in PPT) at The Gypsy Tea Room and the Spike Club (both located in Dallas). Considering my age and work schedule, I didn't have any business going out on Monday night but it was all well worth it. 😁 I danced almost all my make-up off! And though I was dealing with some real "body" issues, with regard to my energy level the next day, things were going pretty good. Then Tuesday and Wednesday roll in and all of a sudden, I can't help but feel as though I'm not getting what I need out of life. I'm extremely irritated by things that I would normally let roll off my back. I'm feeling unappreciated and unfulfilled. 😔 My efforts, my attempts at being graceful, caring and considerate are not being met with the type of appreciation I feel I deserve I know you want specifics-but I won't offer you any). The absence of good, old fashioned good manners is driving me crazy. People aren't saying "please”, "thank you" and "I appreciate all you do for me", and while that ALWAYS annoys me, right now, it's making me want to pick up a brick and "go to town" on someone's head! 🧱 Don't worry or maybe worry a lot) because this has nothing to do with PMS. I know, I'm on this "self pity" trip that's very likely to not be an issue tomorrow but since it's lasted for more than two days, I felt it important enough to record it here for the sake of prosperity. Frankly speaking, I know I have layers that are not particularly flattering. I have been known to have quite a temper 🤬 (which has diminished greatly with age-just ask my family), I can sometimes be hypersensitive, detached and aloof. 🥺 Hey, I'm continuously working on those things. But as a whole, I think there are far more positive things about me, than negative. However, you should take that statement with a "grain of salt" considering that claim is coming from me, about me 🧍🏾♀️When I (allow myself to) think about it, I'm really in great shape. I have wonderfully unique and talented family and friends, I have a job I like and a home life that I adore. I'm also healthy, relatively young and some even find me attractive. I'm just feeling a little down right now. ☹️ I'm just waiting for this phase to pass so I can feel good and positive again. I know these negative "stages" never last too long for me. To remedy the issue, I just need to enjoy a little solitude and self-reflection and all will be well soon. It's just in the stars for me to have my turn at feeling down. Mostly everyone has days like these, the important thing is how you handle them. Do you sit around and do nothing, in a daze, scarfing down Bon-Bons and feeling sorry for yourself? Or, do you get up and do something that'll make you feel better, like recording your feelings in a blog (to get it off your chest) and find some things that'll lift your spirits? I choose to "do something". As it stands, I have a great weekend lined up. A gorgeous and talented friend of mine will be performing (singing) in Addison Friday night and I think she'll rock the house! I KNOW she'll rock the house! After that, I'm hoping the stars will send me some wild, passionate nights to be the "cherry on top" of a wonderful weekend. 🍧 But that's probably just some wishful thinking, I hope not though. 🍒 At any rate, you'll know what's going on with me when I know. Hugs and Kisses!
Posted : 2006-10-05 08:43:00 AM Created : 2006-10-05 09:01:00 AM Visible to : Public
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