RANT/ Crazy II (too)
Well good people, it's day two and I can already feel the novelty wearing off. I sincerely think that's part of my problem, socially, that is. I'm not focused, or at least not focused for long. I find my interest in 'things' and people waning after a relatively short amount of time. Does that mean I'm doomed to be single and childless forever? Scarily, that isn't as scary as I once thought it to be. The funny thing is, I don't know ONE PERSON that is in a relationship that I covet. Not one example of what I want for myself! Is that sad or just the 'Information Age' way of life? Take children for instance. I (and many others) always thought I would make a fabulous mother, I still do. But in my early 20s, I was sure I had to have a child by 35 otherwise my womb would crumble into little pieces and I would pass it like a kidney stone. By the way, I turned 35 on July 1st and as far as I know, everything's intact and working properly. But my fabulous, gorgeous sister pointed something out to me that makes so much sense that I'm ashamed I didn't think of it myself...Life changes, advances, with technology. Is it mere coincidence that women are choosing to have children much later in life? I think not! Right now, there isn't a need to start having kids at 18 to work the farm/fields. Now, really think about that. Families don't need as many children as they once did. Women are doing things for themselves and don't need to attach themselves to man to purchase that new car or house. Single women past the age of 20 are no longer considered Old Maids. Life is progressing without the 'Cleaver' ideals of the past. This is The Age when things are electronic and people are needed less to do mundane tasks that we now (primarily) assign to computers. Advancements emerge because it is the time for them to do so. So now, it's all starting to make sense...have fun and be single as long as you want to be...it's progress! Accepting this 'life philosophy' now, I turn a deaf ear to those women that snidely remark that my biological clock is ticking and I'd better 'get on the ball'. I sincerely think that there is a measure of jealousy/envy there (with them). I think those women made those choices because society told them that they had to do it that way. Some of them now feel trapped because they started families before they were actually ready. And they tell other women to 'hurry up' to share in their poor choice. I know this because some women (that chose early families) have been very frank and honest and told me so. These women admit that although they dearly love their children/significant other, if they had it to do over again, they would've enjoyed being single and free from 'family/relationship' obligations much longer before deciding to settle down. With this new knowledge, I think I'm good...I KNOW I'm good. I enjoy my life. Sometimes it's scary because people make you feel like you're not being honest with what you really want. It's also scary to think you'll end up lollygagging so long that you'll actually miss your opportunity for LIFETIME happiness. But you know what? I think I'm willing to take that chance. For some reason, I feel that everything will fall into place without my forcing it. That's an extraordinarily comforting thought. WOW, this is great therapy! I can now spend all that money I was saving for a therapist. Sadly (or fortunately), it's a substantial amount!
Posted : 2006-08-03 06:21:00 AM Created : 2006-08-03 07:20:00 AM Visible to : Public
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