ForGive and Receive

Love hard, laugh harder and live life like there's no tomorrow...because really, there might not be. 😬 Like so many entries before this one, the catalyst for my blog inspiration comes from a rocky relationship patch. 🙁 Truthfully, I don't have any real direction for this entry. 😑 However, if I don't purge some of this negativity, injected into my life through the actions of others, my unforgiving stress break-outs will have me looking like the human version of The Rocky Mountains.  I'll just take the infamous write & see approach and see if anything 'readable' sticks. 🤭 I make you no promises. 😉

I’ve been VERY disappointed with a few folks lately.  Mind you, some of them are people that I've 😍loved for over half my life. 🥰 Sadly, I often find myself asking the same damn questions. 😐 Why do I continue to give people chances when they are clearly undeserving? Why do I allow myself to be disappointed by people that act like they could give two-shucks about what I'm upset about? Why do I love so hard when others seem to hardly love? 🤔 Is it because I'm a fool? 😔 Is it because I'm a fool for love? 🙁 Me? 😧 Yeah, not likely. 😒 But I will admit that my hope for a positive outcome sometimes supersedes my ability to see "the situation" for what it really is. 😶 Even then, my hope for the hopeless can run out like water from a well. Yep y'all, my well is bone dry. 🦴 And I think that's okay too. 👌🏾

For me, the last few weeks have been wrought with emotional promise and disappointment. 👎🏾 My last few thoughts have been ravaged by hope and disgust. 😤 My last few notable experiences have been with the love of my life and the bane of my existence. 😠 When I considered all of that wasted energy and overabundant hurt, it made me want to lock my heart with a Brinks™ brand double-bolt lock and bury the key in the backyard of that stinky old lady with too many hairy moles. Yes, enough personal upset to bury the key to my heart in the graveyard of neighborhood kids' lost balls. ⚽️🏀🏈 Now that's bad...and sad. 😢

Then, being the Hopeful Horoscope Honey I am, I read this:

"The Judgment card suggests that my alter ego is The Compassionate One, whose superpower lies in revelation of my life and worldly events. I will reflect a sense of gratitude for my life and those involved by showing humility, forgiveness and charity. By doing so, I feel a strong redemption for past events -- a great liberating feeling. I have punished myself enough and am free at last. Clearing the conscience through forgiving yourself and others can bring an overwhelming sense of peace and joy."

I really wasn't feeling all that charitable or forgiving when I read that but a few days later, I read this:

"The Five of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in a crossroads. I am not alone. I intend to let go of despair or nostalgia and I choose to make peace with loss or express mourning in order to move forward. I release the rut of regret and the fear of tomorrow to make way for forgiveness, pleasure, beauty, and hope. I am empowered by my conscience and my gift is forgiveness."

So, I guess the moral of this post is this; There is always hope for the seemingly hopeless as long as forgiveness reigns. 👑 In the words of the great Mahatma Gandhi; "The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." 💪🏾 But in the words of the great Me; "Those worthy of forgiveness will eventually be seen as such. Those unworthy, can go straight to hell." 🔥 Despite how that might read, I mean it in the most loving of possible ways. ♥😐♥ Scout's honor. 🤚🏾 But keep in mind, I was only a Girl Scout for a year or two. ✌🏾