Originally posted on August 2, 2010 - Monday
Current mood: blessed
Category: Life
Negativity is one of
humankind's worst
creations. My sincere drive to stay on
the positive side of things, is one of the character traits I'm
most proud of. I'm not exactly
the consummate beacon of
positivity all the time but my
devotion to getting there ASAP is unwavering. Just like everyone else, I fall victim to sadness,
hopelessness, fear and insecurities but I try not to let those poisoned
emotions rule or ruin me. Still, there
are times when the poisonous presences in my life are just too prominent and
long-lasting to ignore. And in that
vein, I have to keep reminding myself that those negative emotions can really
blind you to the wonderful things you already have and unknowingly, but
routinely, take for granted. I had one those beautiful epiphanies this past
weekend...actually, I had two. I got to spend some quality time
with my handsome older brother, adorable young nephew and my two wonderful
nieces (ages 18 &
20). My brother let
Sis & I take the girls for an "All
Girls Weekend". Sis got us a quaint and stylish hotel on the outskirts of
town where we chilled hard. We laughed so hard I had several attacks of
laughter-driven stomach cramps that made me seriously contemplate medical
treatment, that is, if it
didn't take me away from my three favorite girls in the world. ♥♥(Sis)♥
Honestly, before these two came along, I never wanted girls. I'm not remotely overdramatizing when I tell you that the thought of having girls literally made me sick to my stomach. Not that there's anything wrong with girls (obviously), it's just that I thought they'd require more patience than I thought I had, and that'd almost guarantee me an instant parental "FAIL". The thought of being a parental failure terrified me. However, after spending time with them very early on, that fear was quickly and completely obliterated. After having the pleasure of knowing how intelligent, hilarious and drop-dead gorgeous these young ladies have become, I would've been happy to have had 5 girls if they were anything like these two, plus a little of Sis & I mixed in of course. This past weekend, they shared with us some of the sweetest moments I've ever had or ever will ever have. They told us things that made me proud of the woman I am and the mother I hope to be some day. They made me laugh so hard I almost ruined a perfectly good pair of panties.
I'm sure I'm failing miserably at resisting the urge to go on and on and embarrass my nieces beyond belief but I'm sure you get the idea. Truthfully, I could write pages and pages on how wonderful these two are. You might think I'm just an overly-proud auntie but if you knew them, or spent any amount of time with them, you'd know my over-the-top assessment of how superb they are is right on the money. Just trust me on that.
While this entry is dedicated to them, it's also about the power of inspiration timed at precisely the right moment. My recent life struggles had been dominated by deep disappointment and each day, I'd try to get passed it one small baby step at a time. I knew it would happen, I just didn't know when exactly. Spontaneously re-appreciating the blessings staring you right in the face , is a marvelous thing to behold. I'd been whining about my personal life not being where I want it to be and not knowing what to do about it, then suddenly, I see how wonderful it is without much intervention from me at all. That's a blessed message I want to always appreciate and remember, my hope is that everyone else would do that too.
Your inspiration might not be two wonderful nieces, it could be something else entirely. For you, maybe it's a friend or other family member that stood by you when you thought no one cared. Could be a song that echoes the exact feeling you're experiencing at that exact moment, so you know you're not alone in the world. Or maybe it's the appreciation of good health after a horrific health scare you got through (yours or someone else's). Perhaps it's as simple and justified as waking up everyday. Hell, your inspiration might even be a consistently superbly-written blog by some chick with really big gums. «-» Who knows?! Whatever it is, it can turn hopeless negativity into powerful positivity if you refocus and readjust a little. It doesn’t take much effort, just a slight shift in your mental direction. It's a lofty and worthy goal if you want or need to heal yourself in some small or significant way. I needed to heal myself badly and I will again, probably sooner than I care to think about but I'm fine right now and my sincere drive to stay on the positive side of things will get me here again. I always bounce back. Always. I'm just happy I have two beautiful bouncing "baby" girls that help remind me that a big bouncy booty is useful for more than just attracting a mate.
Honestly, before these two came along, I never wanted girls. I'm not remotely overdramatizing when I tell you that the thought of having girls literally made me sick to my stomach. Not that there's anything wrong with girls (obviously), it's just that I thought they'd require more patience than I thought I had, and that'd almost guarantee me an instant parental "FAIL". The thought of being a parental failure terrified me. However, after spending time with them very early on, that fear was quickly and completely obliterated. After having the pleasure of knowing how intelligent, hilarious and drop-dead gorgeous these young ladies have become, I would've been happy to have had 5 girls if they were anything like these two, plus a little of Sis & I mixed in of course. This past weekend, they shared with us some of the sweetest moments I've ever had or ever will ever have. They told us things that made me proud of the woman I am and the mother I hope to be some day. They made me laugh so hard I almost ruined a perfectly good pair of panties.
I'm sure I'm failing miserably at resisting the urge to go on and on and embarrass my nieces beyond belief but I'm sure you get the idea. Truthfully, I could write pages and pages on how wonderful these two are. You might think I'm just an overly-proud auntie but if you knew them, or spent any amount of time with them, you'd know my over-the-top assessment of how superb they are is right on the money. Just trust me on that.
While this entry is dedicated to them, it's also about the power of inspiration timed at precisely the right moment. My recent life struggles had been dominated by deep disappointment and each day, I'd try to get passed it one small baby step at a time. I knew it would happen, I just didn't know when exactly. Spontaneously re-appreciating the blessings staring you right in the face , is a marvelous thing to behold. I'd been whining about my personal life not being where I want it to be and not knowing what to do about it, then suddenly, I see how wonderful it is without much intervention from me at all. That's a blessed message I want to always appreciate and remember, my hope is that everyone else would do that too.
Your inspiration might not be two wonderful nieces, it could be something else entirely. For you, maybe it's a friend or other family member that stood by you when you thought no one cared. Could be a song that echoes the exact feeling you're experiencing at that exact moment, so you know you're not alone in the world. Or maybe it's the appreciation of good health after a horrific health scare you got through (yours or someone else's). Perhaps it's as simple and justified as waking up everyday. Hell, your inspiration might even be a consistently superbly-written blog by some chick with really big gums. «-» Who knows?! Whatever it is, it can turn hopeless negativity into powerful positivity if you refocus and readjust a little. It doesn’t take much effort, just a slight shift in your mental direction. It's a lofty and worthy goal if you want or need to heal yourself in some small or significant way. I needed to heal myself badly and I will again, probably sooner than I care to think about but I'm fine right now and my sincere drive to stay on the positive side of things will get me here again. I always bounce back. Always. I'm just happy I have two beautiful bouncing "baby" girls that help remind me that a big bouncy booty is useful for more than just attracting a mate.
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