Sad, Sad Girl (Recovered)

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Originally posted on December 3, 2007

Category : Life

Sad, Sad Girl

Skip this one if you don't want to be depressed 'cause I am. With all the drama that I've gone through in the past few months, I feel silly writing this but I will anyway. I feel really sad and alone. I mean, I know logically I'm not but for some reason, I feel very estranged and "separated" from the fold. I don't know how to describe it really, I just feel…sad and alone. Strangely, I'm not lonely, I just feel alone (there's a difference). Don't get me wrong, this feeling isn't just assigned to romantic relationships, it applies to everything…work, play and otherwise. Today at work, I just stayed in my pitiful little cubicle, typing away like a comatosed Fem-bot.🤖 I don't feel like I can truly connect to anyone, in any meaningful way. I feel like I'm just too weird to be completely understood by anyone. 🧠 Actually, everyone in my family is eccentric on some level….in varying degrees from mildly to severely eccentric. I fear that I'm on the severe side of eccentricity and I'm currently suffering because of it. I'm not kidding, I'm really concerned that nobody will ever "get" me. I think I scare people away because they don't know how to read me. Okay, so I'm not exactly an open book (except in my MySpace Blog-y'all know ALL my business) but truthfully, who would want to be? What's wrong with a little mystery? Couldn't "mystery" be a good thing too? I've always thought of myself as being a unique, creative and expressive person but perhaps those qualities are just the beginning stages of advanced schizophrenia. I don't want to die alone and misunderstood! Well, I don't really need anyone to completely understand me (because I don't), I just want somebody to appreciate my oddities. Perhaps appreciation is just too tall an order. While I'm waiting, I think I'll heavily medicate/sedate myself until a solution presents itself. I'm sure things will be better tomorrow or next week or next month...oh hell, screw it! Let me stop typing this crap so I can go swallow these happy pills.💊 Big love and kisses to you! 💋

Posted : 2007-12-03 03:44:00 PM Created : 2007-12-03 03:56:00 PM Visible to : Public

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Originally posted on December 3, 2007
Skip this one if you don't want to be depressed 'cause I am.  With all the drama that I've gone through in the past few months, I feel silly writing this but I will anyway. I feel really sad and ...

 

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